Crazy To Exist

Good news everybody!

1) Am officially in band (In that, I've been properly told now)

2) Sonic Youth tonight was just incredible. Would have liked to hear Teen Age Riot or Expressway To Yr. Skull but can't really quibble about the set. The combination of The Sprawl, which went into Cross The Breeze, was just about the most intensely brilliant 15 minutes of music I've ever seen live.

For some reason recently, I've had fantasies about being a wild frontman-type figure in a band. I think it's probably partly due to the books I've been reading, which feature a lot of energetic confrontational bands with similar characters heading them up: Henry Rollins, James Chance (The Contortions), Mark E Smith etc etc. Also one of my favourite ever bands, Les Savy Fav, feature a singer who is of similar, if not greater, girth and beardiness to me, and is basically my inspiration for being a frontman.

Check out the craziness of Tim Harrington in this video, for example:


For some reason I'm very much attracted to the idea of me flinging myself around the stage shirtless, diving into the audience, going through multiple costume changes, fighting, sweaty and a little bit scary, a whir of beardy energy. I'm not quite sure why this: perhaps it's because I'm so shy offstage and it would be a nice release, especially if I had a persona (I think the Horatio Outside one works well), and because I'm so transfixed by the power of music to make people do this. Is this normal? Is it something a psychotherapist would be very interested to hear about?